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So, I was trading with this guy, and I gave him the majority of my shiny Pokemon, specifically a shiny Vaporeon. That was two months ago. I just got him back today, in a trade with a girl I made acquaintance with because of wonder trade. I don't know I'm pretty mund-blown about this, because I traded Vaporeon TWO months ago, and I got him back because of a wonder trade. I'm kinda happy honestly cx
I have some Pokemon for trade. They aren't too terribly rare, and there aren't too many of them(anymore) but they're there!

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Phione

Uxie, Mesprit, Azelf

Zekrom

Reshiram

Vivillion- Event Green Version

Kyurem


Rayquaza - shiny(I cherish this thing, but he's up there)

Entei - shiny

Sceptile - Shiny (I'll have to breed a treeko from him first)


Giratina


Greninja - shiny

Lugia - shiny



Cresselia

Latias and Latios - Shiny

Suicune - shiny (I treasure it too, but he's there too.)

Terrakion

Moltres

Togepi - shiny (IT DOESNT LOOK IT BUT I PROMISE HE IS)

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There isn't really much I want. Its actually a really tiny list!

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Jirachi
Diancie
Meloetta
Milotic
Groudon
Mew
Altaria
Shiny Gengar
Alakazam

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Now remember. Taking advantage of others isn't nice. I cherish quite a few of my Pokemon(all of them), but if I decide against it, don't be offended! 

And that's it really lol. Just comment and I'll check it. My friend code is 
5456-0145-2733
Going into High School Gr.10) is definitely not helping me with anything. Nor is my own Mother, telling me I'll have no friends if I don't talk to more people. But the thing is, I know a lot of people, and I know that I won't need to worry too much about whether or not I'll be alone. Because my biggest fear is loneliness. I even reconsidered taking up my Mom's idea of moving, so I could start fresh. However, my fear of being lonely, also clashes with my fear of people, and my fear of any social situation. It is not a win-win situatuion for me, nor is it a win-lose. Now that I have confirmed anxiety, it doesn't help either. My grades are also an added issue, and I know that I will have to deal with them one way or another, without stressing myself out.

 Unrealistic thoughts(not the pleasent kind) now plague my life, each and every single day. They are far from the comfort I used to be able to seek within moments. Every single little pain makes me think I'm about to die. Anything makes me feel unsafe, or like my body is trying to kill itself. Cancer, diabetes, etc. My fear is that I won't get the future I want, happily married, and with a kid or two. Adding to that fear, is the fear that my mom, dad, aunt, uncle, and Grandpa won't be there for those experiences; the experiences that mean most to me. I have lost my Grandmother. That was in grade six. It took me until now, to finally accept the fact that she is no longer here with me, and there are times when I fear that I may loose someone else, and I will shut down.

Having internet friends both helps, but also upsets me. There are times where I wish it was them I would be going to school with, but knowing that I can't, it honestly makes me upset. There are people on here, who I've made best friends with, and those who I have become frenemies with. There is even one special person who, at times, I wish I could meet in person, but that is a distant dream of mine, just a silly dream, like the ones I had as a child, when I wished to Prince, to be swept away. But, as the song I Dreamed a Dream suggestes, "There are dreams that cannot be." and I know that this may be one of them. But I wish I could meet every single one of you in person, and see if I can confide in the comfort that they've provided me, even if they don't know it.

 I wish I could say I was looking forwards to growing up, but the very ideal of growing up unsettles. While we grow up, we also grow old, and everything around us grows old. It is a crushing thing to realize. I have yet to find a way to cope with these thoughts and emotions. But, I suppose there is no way I can get through life like this. So from here on out, I am going to be as positive as I can be. I am determined to meet everyone on here in person one day, and to everyone who has given their time to me, I cannot thank you enough.
 I have had large cases of anxiety. They're so bad, that I can go nights without sleeping. Not only this, but I now have fears and phobias I never had before. Death, and my health. I cannot simply cope with this, and the idea of just growing up itself bugs me greatly. There are times when I will cry myself to sleep_ because I don't know how to handle this. Though the title says dealing with anxiety. I myself, have found no way to help me. 

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Kikiani Kirschtein
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Mae Govennen, Well Met!

My name is Kikiani, but you can call me Ki-Chan or Ani~

I AM ALSO DOVAHKIIN. BOW DOWN BITCHEEES. <3 jk i love you all.

I have many interests, such as The Lord of the Rings, Elves(Especially Legolas <3) anime, the horror appeal, animals, anything fantasy-filled, like works written by C.S.S Lewis, or Davis Clement-Davies(The author of The Sight and Fell), metal, rock, and Disney Movies <3

I am very approachable, so don't be afraid to talk to me c: I do like new friends c:

You'll know more about me if we ever talk, and through journals and my artwork c:
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:icontroyrich93:
troyrich93 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist
Happy b-day^^
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Student General Artist
Thanks~
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troyrich93 Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Hobbyist
:hug:
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xXLost-BoyXx Featured By Owner 4 days ago  New member
Happy B-Day
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Student General Artist
Thank you~ c:
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xXLost-BoyXx Featured By Owner 4 days ago  New member
did you have a great day?
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner 4 days ago  Student General Artist
Yeah! I got a dog today c:
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ivan1426 Featured By Owner Sep 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
i dunno if i thanked you yet, but THANKS SO MUCH FOR THE WATCH
its really appreciated Excited !!!
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troyrich93 Featured By Owner Aug 13, 2014  Hobbyist
Hello.
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horsefree2 Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014
HEY, BSF REMEMBER ME!!!!!!
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Student General Artist
YES
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horsefree2 Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014
BSF!!!!*glompz you*
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2014  Student General Artist
HELLOOO -glomps back-
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spiritofwolvesnight Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
arigato (thx) for the watch!

OOMMGGG  ,I LOVE THE CORPSES BRIDE MAKE UP YOU DID,

i also love that movie X3
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student General Artist
No worries! x))) And thank you <3 I actually did that after I finished crying because of that moviee
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spiritofwolvesnight Featured By Owner Jun 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
yw, cool
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Sully30 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Girl! Just wanted to tell you that I'm thinking on the pokemon Rp. I love it, just thinking some while I prepare my mind for the battle in the X-Men RP. XD :hug: I have some more ideas... :3 
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Student General Artist
Of course! As long as we have the xmen rp still going :3
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Sully30 Featured By Owner Jun 19, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't think the x-men one will end for a while.... :3
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magnoli Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
thank you so much for the watch!:)<3
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner Jun 18, 2014  Student General Artist
Of course~! <3
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Kimisuu Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
I would like to say;;vv 
   Thank you for the favorite, or llama if you give me;;u; is very much appreciated. I hope i don't disappoint you with my art in anyway and you continue to enjoy my art;; Once again thank you so much. This makes me happy to see people appreciate my work. 

I'm actually working on a art piece right now, so please bear with me!~ As it may take some time to finish heh~ 

Have a lovely day!!

Also i have given a llama in return;; (If you have no recieved the llama, please wait i have a lot of messages to reply to) :iconyuiheavenplz:
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner Jun 2, 2014  Student General Artist
Of course~! I look forwards to your art <3 And thank you for the llama c:
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lexiethedog Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Student Digital Artist
I'm sorry about our LOTR RP. I guess I lost the note. D:
But would be up for a different RP?
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AnimeFantasyWolfGirl Featured By Owner Jun 1, 2014  Student General Artist
No worries :3 I was having terijble writers block for it, but sure! Note me?
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